We Sing For The Deaf And We Dress For The Blind

I felt like a doll in a doll house today, i have my pigtails, my cute skirt and my feather duster...i have also been writing more, i seem to be doing this daily...i really need to find a guitarist who would be willing to do some acoustic behind my lyrics so i can do open mic nights and stuff...

'We could make the most beautiful music even though we've never even met'

I'm going to Bourne Free the gay pride parade in Bournemouth tomorrow, I'm going with the theme and dressing as a pirate :P i also have a flag! :D

Song for today -

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same

My brother has ran off to sonisphere and left me here :(

Anyway...I've got two studio photoshoots in Portsmouth soon which will be fun, i can show off my new hair :) plus i haven't been on a studio photoshoot in a while. :)

I had a lovely night with my dark metal man... we watched lots of movies and talked :) I love him.

I wrote a little something this evening, it's not amazing...

'Something great will flourish,
Its long awaited to come,
so anywhere the wind takes your hat,
you follow with a caring heart,
the fella on the other side will take care of you,
and there's no doubt of that,
this shall be a new chapter in your book of dreams,
common sense will tell you that it will all end in tears,
But weapin' never got you no where,
that's the history lesson i tell you,
but when its the time to end,
there's nothing more to say,
something from land to sea will sweep you away,
something from far far away,
something unexpected,
so darling hold onto your heart,
the best is yet to come,
so save your tears for this fella,
he's worth every little drop.'

It pretty much means that the love i have could end in tears or everything I've ever wanted.

Song for today -

Too strange to live, too rare to die.

Just to get it out of the way...Tom Raven is sexy (happy now?)

Ok, i'm much happier today, me and my mother are spending some time together, we're listening to Lighthouse Family because it brings back memories of when my dad worked in saudi arabia for 3 months and we listened to Lighthouse Family to remind us of him. :')

I'm cuddeling Miss Lucy and having a nice glass of wine after a hard day of cleaning the house.

 Cute isn't she? :)

The perfect love of my life is spending the night tomorrow...i can't wait to see him, he means the world to me. <3 I must add a photo of his beautiful face <3

Song for today -

Some people say that what I know should be kept secret...

Don't you just love it when a decent mood turns to depression in a matter of minutes...some people are so stupid is scary! You're saying things right to my face as if i'm someone you hate.

I seem to be doing everything for other people and all round helping everyone, yet i never help myself, all i do is put a smile on and hide my feelings, i give out little crys for help yet no one hears them, and i'm betting the people who need to read this...won't and the people who don't need to will and will force me to tell them who its about and make me more upset.

Stop asking if everythings ok, or whats wrong, and just make me happy? and be a good friend?

Song for today - 

'Train your fingers for battle'

Home for one night then away to my second home again tomorrow...home really sucks, everyones so depressed here!

Anyway, while i was away i got some lovely new clothes that i would LOVE to wear on a shoot soon :)
The weathers going to be much better this weekend, lets hope i don't tan! goths shouldn't be tanned!

Song for today is by Flyleaf -

"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity" - Edgar Allan Poe

I'm home...its so depressing here, i'm the happiest one in the family and i'm a GOTH?! how the hell does that work? anywho, got home yesterday after an amazing weekend with my Mr. Raven, lots of fun things happened ;) I miss him dearly now :(

I'm currently selling some alternative clothes on ebay - http://myworld.ebay.co.uk/white_witch_123
Go look :D

Song for today is by Johnny Hollow -

Tea! :D

Had my solo performance today...went pretty good i did -
Johnny Cash - Hurt
Placebo - Meds
Emilie Autumn - Gentlemen aren't nice
Placebo - Infra-red

I have my last day at college tomorrow :D it was meant to be today, but i couldn't be arsed to finish all my work, and i have to go in tomorrow to meet my boyfriend anyway...so i thought i may as well just take my time and make it better :D <3

Here's a video of me singing 'Gentlemen Aren't Nice' i hope you enjoy and subscribe to me :D <3